The heart desires

Have you ever wanted something (or someone) for so long and so bad...you would do anything to have it? Maybe it was something of vanity, of function, of vice. You want it, but something is holding you back from getting it, which only makes you want it more. After a time, the more you think about it, it becomes an obsession. You imagine what it would be like to get it, to have it, how much better your life would be with it. Although you think about it, you haven't seen it for a while and as the mind so often does, your memory of what it is has changed, perhaps made it better or way cooler in your mind than what it actually is. Even though you want it, you think you need it by now. Maybe it could make you more secure, happy, complete. Then the day comes, the opportunity arises when you can finally get it.

What's wrong you say? You find that once you have it, it's not really as good as you thought it would be. It doesn't feel, doesn't look, doesn't fit in as well as you had hoped. The excitement lasts for a little while, but then it wears off and now it sits uselessly neglected. You wonder what all the fuss was about to begin with.

C'est domage.